KATE CARROLL:’METTETEVI NEI MIEI PANNI’
La vedova di Stephen Carroll si rivolge agli assassini di suo marito
Nella settimana del Remembrance, Kate Carroll si sfoga ai microfoni di U TV, dicendo di pregare ogni giorno perchè gli assassini di Stephen, possano indossare i suoi panni almeno per una volta.
Stephen Carroll venne ucciso a Craigavon il 9 marzo 2009, due giorni dopo l’attentato alla base militare di Massereene. Il suo omicidio venne rivendicato dal Continuity IRA.
“Prego per loro, nella speranza che un giorno arrivino alla realizzazione che quello che stanno facendo non è giusto, e che stanno solo distruggendo vite umane”, ha affermato la vedova.
“Mettetevi nei miei panni, vedrete come vi sentireste, se si fosse trattato di qualcuno che veramente, veramente amate. Dubito che abbiate mai veramente amato, altrimenti non potreste fare questo.”
Kate rivive quel maledetto ‘lunedì’ ogni settimana, con una crescente angoscia che l’attanaglia soprattutto alle 21.50, ora in cui il marito venne ucciso.
“Ho rivissuto quel giorno più e più volte”, ma dichiara di non essere arrabbiata ne amareggiata nei confronti degli uomini che gli hanno strappato Stephen.
“Io prego per loro. Essi non sei con me 24 ore su 24, 7 giorni su 7”, e insiste che desiderebbe solo che potessero vivere un solo giorno di quelli che sta vivendo lei da quel 9 marzo.
I coniugi avrebbero festeggiato il 24esimo anniversario di matrimonio lo scorso Agosto. “Avrebbe dovuto essere un giorno davvero, davvero felice ed è stato uno dei giorni peggiori della mia vita.”
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Carroll’s widow ‘prays for killers’ (U TV)
The widow of murdered police officer Constable Stephen Carroll has said she prays for his killers every day.
In Remembrance week UTV’s Jane Loughrey returned to the Carrolls’ Banbridge home, where she heard Kate Carroll beg her husband’s killers to spend just one day in her shoes.
“I pray for them in the hope that one day they will come to the realisation that what they are doing is not right, and that they’re just wrecking lives,” she said.
“Put yourself in my shoes, see how you would feel, if it was someone you truly, truly loved. I doubt they ever truly loved, otherwise they couldn’t do this.”
Constable Carroll was murdered by the Continuity IRA in Craigavon in March.
The police officer was gunned down just 48 hours after two soldiers were shot dead by the Real IRA at an army base in Antrim.
Kate Carroll told UTV she was still in agony over the loss.
“Groundhog day is Monday,” she said.
“Every Monday I re-live what happened.
“As the day goes on I get worse and worse and worse, because I’m watching the clock until the hour came that Steve was killed – at 9.50pm.
“I just re-live that day over and over again.”
But she said she was neither bitter nor angry at the men who murdered her husband.
“I have no bitterness in me. Never had, never will and nobody on this earth is ever going to make me that way. Nobody.
“I pray for them. They’re not with me 24/7.
“If they were walking in my shoes for one day, just one day … that would let them see what they have done.”
Kate Carroll received a Woman of the Year award earlier this month in recognition of her inspirational bravery in the face of her husband’s murder.
She received the award on what would have been Stephen’s 49th birthday, a birthday he predicted he would never see.
An emotional Kate explained: “His dad died when he was 49 and Steve thought that he wouldn’t make it … He wasn’t to know he was going to be shot.”
Kate and Stephen would have celebrated their 24th wedding anniversary in August. Instead, it was a bleak day.
“That morning I just woke up completely empty – there was no Steve,” Kate said.
“It should have been a really, really happy day and it was one of the worst days of my life.”
Too distraught to visit her husband’s grave, Kate has instead planted a tree in her garden in his memory.
But next summer she will go to Ashford Castle, where she and Stephen had planned to renew their wedding vows on their silver anniversary.
She insists it is what her husband would have wanted.